Blogging At My Girlfriends House

My girlfriend and I watch TV together almost every Tuesday and Thursday night. Tonight one of our shows is off due to the MLB playoffs. We both had stuff to do so, while she studied over her map for a quiz tomorrow, I started looking over stuff for my test in Software Arch & Design. I actually made it further than I expected. After looking over that stuff for a while, I went on to look at some SQL for my Database class.

I was excited we my girlfriend decided to take a break. She laid on me as we looked at stuff on my laptop. She read all my blogs and asked some questions. She laughed at some of the pics I put up of school and us. We're about to watch Nip Tuck together and I can wait. Gotta run!!

I got two more test this week and I'm not really ready for either one. I'm meeting up with someone between classes tomorrow to look over some stuff in our Ethics class. As far as the other one goes, the person that I would normally study with is feeling sick so I got to just get down and do it. I'm trying to plan something for me and Ash this weekend so that we can talk and enjoy ourselves. I really need a break from school already. I had to take a mental health day on Monday so I didn't attend any of my classes. I did however study for the test I had today in the library up at KSU. I saw Ash before I got there and we walked around campus talking for a good little while. I must say I enjoyed every moment of it. It reminded me of the days we spent together back in the Boro.

My baby got sick today, last night really, and I hope I don't get it. She got some meds called in and it seems to be working for her. I'm going to leave in a little while because I know she can't get much work done while I'm here. I just want to be as supportive as I can, so I know when it's time for me to leave. To say she sick and all, she really looks great!!! Maybe it's because I miss her a lot but I don't know..... She my "big butt" and I love her with all my heart.

Feeling Alienated

Today like many other days in the past few weeks I guess, I feel alienated from a lot of things. Almost a feeling of being just left out or a feeling of being of little importance to those that are close to me. I know that I feel it from other people but I also believe that I do it to myself. I find myself not doing a lot of things that I really would like to do. I think that I'm seriously going to start just doing things that I like to do and disregard everyone else for a while. They can either do things with me or just not be with me during that time. I haven't had a good whole week of doing things that I like and love to do in a long time. Call it selfish if you like, but I'm getting tired of catering to others needs all the time. I do this and that and it's not even what I want to do..... Oh and do let me say no, I'm liable not to get talked to for the rest of the night. No one should feel this way. I almost feel obligated to just go a head and do it so that I don't have to be worried about the extra stuff that comes along with saying no to something. But I'm really tired of other people running my life.

One days like today, I wish I was back a GSU for the simple fact that I when I felt this way back there, there was always someone there for me to lean on. Here, I don't really have that many friends. Especially those of which you would go hang out with. The school I go to now has a mixed crowed of people and I do have a core group of friends that I have most of my classes with. But they're really not the people that I would go over to hang out. I think I'm going to have to find another outlet. I would say my girlfriend but it's about the same as when I was back in the Boro and well just see each other on the weekends :(.... I figured it be like that for the most part. I know that it might help if I get a job. I'm going to start back looking next week.... well I can really start tomorrow. So I will.

School's going fine so far. I had my first test yesterday and I think I did ok on it. I've done three small papers so far and it really hasn't killed me yet. I have one really boring class every day and there's no class that I've got that's really exciting to go to. But those too classes are the hardest to pay attention in. One of them only has 9 people in it so I can't really fall asleep in this mans class. If I could I would. I got a couple of things to do this weekend so maybe I'll get most of them done tomorrow so I can relax some.

Life..... could it be different?

Today I find myself reflecting on the past few years of my life a wondering how things would be if I weren't like the person I am.... What I'm trying to say is, if the chooses and decision I made in the past were not of my own but of someone unlike me, where would I be today? Would I have gotten out of high school, or even went to college? What about the school I chose to go to, would I have picked Georgia Southern? What about my girlfriend? Would I be with her, have talked to her, loved her, hated her? What would my relationship be like with me family? I don't know what possessed me to think about such things but it just hit me.

I've been talking to a friend back at Southern and she's been telling me about how her life's been these past few years sense she's been in school. I think it's really interesting because in a way she wishes that she would have carried herself for the last two years is the way I did carry myself. She's is really reflecting on her life and how she says one thing or is one way and does/portrays just the opposite. She is a Christian and believes that her actions don't reflect her walk with the lord. This to her is very important and it should be for every Christian. Because we are Christians, worldy people are always going to be looking at us to see what we're doing, acting and behaving. It's like having a life under a microscope. She recently stopped dating her boyfriend because of some of the things happening in the relationship. I told her a long time ago that I didn't believe that her relationship with him was going to work. It takes people a little bit longer to see things from an outside perspective because we get so entangled into the moment. Anyway, he's trying to get back with her, but she finally put her foot down and told he that he was going to have to change in order for them to get back together. I'm so happy for her. She seem so happy on the phone now when we talk. I think if I where still in the Boro we would be best friend. I would like to think so anyway.

Back to me, if I were to be one of those people that partied all the time, how would that reflect my spirituality? What would that say about me, my faith, my teachings??? I would like to believe that I do carry myself in a manner that is respectable and smiled on by God. I hope that I can remain to be in good favor with God and that he keeps me and gives me the strength to continue on in my walk.

School's In!!

I started school back on Monday of this week hoping that I wouldn't find myself in any hard classes...... that's not the case at all. I'm taking 6 classes this semester; some being easy while others are not. Composition, Digital Design, professional Practices & Ethics, and History seem to be my easer courses so far. Database Systems and Software Architecture & Design are both going to take a lot out me over the next 17 weeks or so. I do want to do good in both of these classes as well as the others. I just don't think I'll be able to make straight A's this term. My girlfriend also started back this week and she seem to be liking how thing are going for her as of now. Her brother also stared school and seems to be excited about the whole being in college thing. I wish them both the best.

School, for the most part, has come back and taken up a big chunks of my life once again, but I can happily say that I'll be doing other things while being in school. One thing that I'm proud of the dedicating myself back to the Lord. For most of the summer.... well really the past two year (sense I've been in college) a haven't had a close relationship with God. I can blame only myself for this. I have started attending church regularly and can truly feel uplifted already. Another thing I'm doing is going to a concert with my girlfriend the weekend of Labor Day. It should e fun. It's the Counting Crows and the Goo Goo Dolls. I don't listen to either of their music but with help from my girlfriend I got to listen to a lot of it. I don't really like Goo Goo but the other group is ok. I think she said she didn't really like them either. There's a couple more things I would like to do this semester if I can get a chance but I'll bring those up later on.

Back Home to Louisiana

This past Friday, I had the opportunity to take my mom back home to Louisiana. We left out early Friday morning to beet all the traffic and to not feel like we'd been on the road all day. We got there around 9:00 (Central time) and it was already starting to get hot. I didn't do too much on Friday but see a lot of family. I stayed with my aunt on my dad's side of the family that night and the next.

Saturday was really special because it was my late grandmothers birthday. So we all went up to the cemetery and did a kinda of memorial thing there. It had started raining while we were driving up there. Luckily it slowed up so that we could pay our respects. My mom read a nice poem that she wrote and all the sisters let go their balloons at the end. It was really enjoyable for me because me and my grandmother were close.

Sunday was too funny. I went to my first ghetto wedding. I have never been to a wedding like this in my life. It was one of my cousin that was getting married and the whole thing was like a big joke. There were people smoking and drinking during the wedding. There were people walking around for the entire time the service was being held. It was outside and there wasn't enough chairs to even seat everybody. The order of the service was all wrong and they didn't look at each other during the reciting of the vows. It was quite the production.

Back to the Boro

This past weekend, I took a trip back to the Boro (Georgia Southern). It was so hot there that you would break out into a sweat just going from the car to the house. I spent a lot of time with my old roommate while I was there. We went out to eat and watched movies at the house…. after the power can back on that is. Around 6’oclock or so it got really dark and started seriously storming. The storm knocked the power out for at least an hour and a half. It was good seeing and talking to him, it reminded me of old times.

<>I took a little joyride around the Boro to see if there was any new stuff that had been built while I had been away. They look like they’re trying to build the little town up. They’ve added some really nice apartments down there (much better than the one I stayed in). There were some new businesses there as well. I couldn’t tell if they were going to make it because there was like no one down there at all (students).

On Sunday I walked around the campus a bit just remembering all the things that I did while I was there. I remember the first night I stayed in my room my freshman year and what that fist moment felt like to be out of the house. Memories of me and my girlfriend meeting up for lunch, going to see free movies or watching the baseball games, and running in the rain to get to class. I can’t forget all the late night I spent at the library trying to study for a test or the cold morning that I walked in for my first class at 8. I was kinda taking aback from it all. I really did enjoy myself down there and it was harder to say goodbye than I thought.

Pics of Statesboro

Pics of the Boro

My Apartment Complex

My Apartment (last one on the left)

Lake Side (Georgia Southern Campus)

Library (Georgia Southern Campus)


Information Building (Georgia Southern Campus)

Brennan Hall (Georgia Southern Campus)


Baseball Stadium (Georgia Southern Campus)