Life..... could it be different?

Today I find myself reflecting on the past few years of my life a wondering how things would be if I weren't like the person I am.... What I'm trying to say is, if the chooses and decision I made in the past were not of my own but of someone unlike me, where would I be today? Would I have gotten out of high school, or even went to college? What about the school I chose to go to, would I have picked Georgia Southern? What about my girlfriend? Would I be with her, have talked to her, loved her, hated her? What would my relationship be like with me family? I don't know what possessed me to think about such things but it just hit me.

I've been talking to a friend back at Southern and she's been telling me about how her life's been these past few years sense she's been in school. I think it's really interesting because in a way she wishes that she would have carried herself for the last two years is the way I did carry myself. She's is really reflecting on her life and how she says one thing or is one way and does/portrays just the opposite. She is a Christian and believes that her actions don't reflect her walk with the lord. This to her is very important and it should be for every Christian. Because we are Christians, worldy people are always going to be looking at us to see what we're doing, acting and behaving. It's like having a life under a microscope. She recently stopped dating her boyfriend because of some of the things happening in the relationship. I told her a long time ago that I didn't believe that her relationship with him was going to work. It takes people a little bit longer to see things from an outside perspective because we get so entangled into the moment. Anyway, he's trying to get back with her, but she finally put her foot down and told he that he was going to have to change in order for them to get back together. I'm so happy for her. She seem so happy on the phone now when we talk. I think if I where still in the Boro we would be best friend. I would like to think so anyway.

Back to me, if I were to be one of those people that partied all the time, how would that reflect my spirituality? What would that say about me, my faith, my teachings??? I would like to believe that I do carry myself in a manner that is respectable and smiled on by God. I hope that I can remain to be in good favor with God and that he keeps me and gives me the strength to continue on in my walk.